Tuesday, July 19, 2005

A Lesson Learned

God has taught me a lesson this past week I thought I would share with you.

Let's face it. I'm a control freak. I want to know everything that has happened, is happening, and will happen in the future whether it deals with school, family, the church, or life in general. I also have a tough time giving up control to God. So, I guess God thought it was time to teach me a lesson. I generally think God is not as involved in the world as many believe. For instance, I don't believe God answers prayers for parking spots, etc., but this week he had his hand in my life.

Holly and I are house sitting for a family in Houston and last week I lost the key to the house. Then, as I was looking for a CD, I found out that 24 of my CD's were gone from my car. I never lose things, but this week I was losing everything. Then, my car got sick and wouldn't turn on. Everything was going wrong and I began to get angry with myself about my lack of control in these areas. Finally, my mom and Holly talked some sense into me and got me to see that I need to give up control and ask God to help me in these areas.

And, of course, in God's perfect timing, a week later I found out the key was left at a house where I had been at a Bible study the previous week. Then yesterday, I had to use our host family's car because mine wasn't working and guess what I found. My CD's. I would have never found them had it not been for my car not working. Do you think God was trying to tell me something? I came home hoping God had fixed my car too, but so far that has not been the case. I guess he has to punish me sometimes for my lack of submission.

God, thanks for the lesson I hope to have grown from. You have done your part. May your Spirit work in me to give up the control I so desperately want to hang onto. Thanks for putting people in my life who are willing to tell me when I mess up. Thank you for your provision. In Jesus' Name I pray, Amen!

1 comment:

N8 said...

Oh Collin. Sometimes you crack me up. I liked reading your entry and I am totally happy that everything eventually worked out for you. Any idea whats wrong? You'll get it fixed I know. It sounds like your feeling vulnerable to the moving of God in your life, I guess thats a good thing. Can't fault it at all. How are you and Holly doing? Havent you guys been to several different houses this summer? What does she do during the day while you a are at the office? And when are you heading back to school, we should go out to lunch or something sometime. I want to talk more about your experiences. Tell G-Bo, (Greg Boyle) that I said wassup!